Sorry I’ve been away for awhile but I’ve been realizing things and dealing with built up emotions.
Why is it that one minute the world can appear to me a magical forest and then the next minute it is a dark cloud engulphing the world that you knew. I don’t understand it, feeling every emotion so raw in my body makes me feel ever so distant from existence. The feeling paralyzes me and I am left to sulk under warm sheets, protecting me from the world above. For moments at a time I can breathe in cool and crisp air, but as soon as it had begun I am left to breathe that old, hot scent.
It is a constant battle against the angel and devil, never leaving you be to get a moment’s rest. It is useless fighting, so we give up to our mind’s game and let the outcome unveil itself. One day it might be rain, another might have sun.